I am become Overwatch/Event Post: HaVen: Saints & Sinners

The last couple months my life has existed in a circle. Schoolwork, Overwatch, sprinkled with the occasional babysitting gig. With the fucked up things in the world getting "lost" in that amazing game with friends I love is just the right medicine. It's given me something good to concentrate on. And it feels good to be good at something again. I've actually considered joining the Overwatch League if I get the chance to. I will have to try my best. I play with a group of friends most nights of the week between 9pm and midnight or so if anyone wants to join, contact me however you know how and we'll exchange Battle.net tags.

Earlier this month on the 5th (remember remember...?) I participated in my fourth Extra-Life event. I stayed up for nearly 24 hours playing and streaming video game to raise money for children's hospitals. My goal was to raise $100, I ended up with $108 exceeding my goal! By the end of that first day of fundraising in total across all fundraising efforts, it was around $7 million. I forget what the current number is at but they are accepting donations all the way through December 31st so if you have any extra money and are feeling generous send a donation here. If you want to watch some of the fun times that were had you can check the playlists on this Youtube channel. Warning, when the videos were uploaded from Twitch the orders were messed up and some parts were deleted. Apologies if some things don't make sense.

My birthday was the 19th. It wasn't a "special" one or anything. I turned 29. To celebrate I'm heading to HaVen: Saints & Sinners with my good pal Sawtooth. The outfit I'll be wearing is this nice lacy black dress with rose patterns all over it. I have a nice black rose choker to wear around my neck and my favorite skull earrings. Since it will be cold I'll be wearing these long fingerless gloves and this nice black poncho sort of thing. Just in case I'm still cold, a cloak. I've posted a picture on my Instagram.

Seeya next time I post!

Medical Maladies, Play Overwatch with me, and Musics.

Well I want to start this off my saying I won't be vending at that Steampunk Festival as I posted last month. Nothing bad happened just cetain things didn't work out.

Now for important things. I posted about it before, I was having a lot of medical issues I was trying to work out. Well, it's done. I found out about two weeks ago now that I have fibromyalgia. I'll let you look it up if you want but basically I feel a lot of pain and there is no real cure for it. I'll live. I'll deal. It does suck though. I was just talking about this with some people, what's funny about this to me is I finally have my mental health figured out. Nice timing, "fix" my brain just to deal with my broken body. Meh.

It definitely is a good thing I was working on my brain. I mean I feel depressed right now but it's not nearly as bad as it used to be. Normally when I am really depressed or having a hard time mentally it feels like I'm in a laberinth in the middle of space that's somehow also underwater. Like I'm lost and drowning and there's nothing. This time I feel more like I'm hanging out in an old abanoned swimming pool. It's not great but it's nowhere near as bad. I'm just waiting for someone to show up or something instead of feeling lost forever. As my husband says, "Now you know the way back."

One of the things I've been doing to "fix my brain" is to work on my flashbacks. I used to get these uncontrollable flashbacks that interrupted my day, froze me, changed my mood and made me miserable. It definitely made my day more difficult. I came up with a couple things I can do; one is I do the sign language symbol for the letter "f" with one of my hands. F for flashback if that wasn't obvious. I'm not sure if that does much but my other technique works great. I have a flashback and the second I regain any control I "go into" the flashback and fuck with it somehow. Usually it's really violent and cartoonish which really snaps me out of it. That thing isn't there it's just a thing in my head I can manipulate if I try hard enough. Not saying this is a cure and everyone should do it. But I've actually had less flashbacks since doing this.

Now onto less depressing things! I have been playing Overwatch as much as I can. I am planning on cosplaying as D.Va for Pax East and I have been working on a team to try and play competitive mode and maybe do tournaments with. We only really have three consistent team-mates right now, so let me know if you are down! I am good with D.va, Reaper, Mei, Ana, and Zarya. I'm ok with Mercy and Hanzo. Oh and situationally I'm good with Winston. The three of us on the team usually play Monday nights but I might have to make a different schedule depending on other potential team mates. Oh We play on P.C. to clarify.

One last thing! The hubs has another DJ gig next month! This ones a bigger one with several other DJ's. Tickets and more information here!

Thanks for reading!

June so soon?

June is going by pretty quickly it seems. It took longer than I meant it to but here's an update on how the event went we threw to raise money for my friend Joshua's Japan travels. We made $362 in roughly four hours. I call it a success. If you couldn't make it to the event but want to help out, there is plenty of time. Click on his name up above and throw some money at him.

Infamy productions is still up and running. We will be running a vending table at the Steampunk festival up in Nashua August 20th. I've been working on some accessories. I'll document my progress over on my Instagram, so check it out if you get curious.

We'll definitely be running more events. I'm even interested in being a part of some wedding planning, officiating if any of you are looking for some help. I think it'd be extra fun if it's a super "weird" wedding or something.

Oh, my husband and I have been working on a video series. We don't have a Youtube channel or anything yet, but I did finally figure out my Twitch channel if that interests you. I've been playing mostly Hearthstone and Overwatch for now. I mostly stream in the morning, or in the evening when I have other friends.

Don't forget to like my page for this blog and my twitter.

I hope I get to show you some amazing Steampunk clothes and accessories next time around!

Event Post: Ressurection Under Da Covers

So I took a bit of a break from the clubbing scene. Life happened and shit got stressful for a minute plus my lovery medical maladies being a literal pain. I will spare those details for now, though.

I have been making more art lately so I started a new Deviantart. If we used to be friends there, add me! Also, add me if you weren't I suppose.

This Thursday I will be at Ressurection: Under Da Covers helping my pal Josh sling some anime wares. I haven't yet decided what PJ's I'm wearing. Probably my default Batman onesie with Batman shirt and such underneath and my stuffed animal, Robin, the Bear-Wonder.

Normally I would post pictures of these things but I think I'm going to try something different today. I'm going to post pictures relating to this post on my Instagram. I will Hashtag it something like; #gothonashoestring #eventpost #Rez that seems maybe good.

Speaking of my Dear sir Josh, Don't forget to come hang out with us the last Sunday of this month.

See you elsewhere on the internet.

Use your powers for good.

So it turns out I have some updates this time! First of all, I will be at Pax East this weekend on Saturday April 22nd. I will be there assisting my cosplaying friend, (and once upon a time room-mate), Kamikaze Miko. I will also be temporarily "taking over" the Instagram account of Kosplay Underground, taking pictures, videos, so maybe I'll see some of you there!

I've somewhat rekindled my love of anime lately. Adult things got in the way of some things and I was starting to get a little too stressed so I began to check back in on some of my "old" loves. Next thing you know I'm doing things at Pax for people haha. It's kind of awesome to be honest. I know I will be stressed at tired by the end. Worth it.

I have also been working on another charity event. It's still somewhat in the early workings, but keep your calendar open for the the end of May if you are super into basically anything Japanese, especially cosplay and dancing. In the meantime, pleas check this page out for me: https://www.gofundme.com/tqckr7hg

See you later people.
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Life updates, medical doings, and what else?

          So this post is long, involved, and is about issues in my life I am almost cerain some of you don't give two shits about. It's not about fashion, or goth things, but as I've said before, it's my blog so fuck it.

           The last year or so has been rough. Deaths, divorces, the loss of family, fights, stress, pain. It was like bing in a dark tunnel with a light at the end, but the light keeps moving farther away. During this time, my body began to feel "weird." I got clumsier, my hands weren't co-operating, my neck, back, and shoulders were always still. I started forgetting things more. Words would just disapear from my head. Weird muscle spasms, temperature changes, sweating. As I write this my hand feels like it's burning. Don't even get me stared on the random pains and joints popping. I'm 28 years old and I feel like I'm in the body of a 70 year old.
           I though I had done it to myself somehow. I started experimenting on myselg. I changed my diet. I stopped smoking weed to see if that had anythign to do with it, the only thing that did was made me realize how bad my pain is. I stopped drinking booze for a while and to this day I don't drink nearly as much as I used to. I ragged and flipped out on friends and loved ones almost against my will. I felt like I was possessed. I thought it was just a lot of stress. I felt like I was losing my mind.
            I went to my doctor. She said we should rule out arthritis before moving onto things like MS or Lupus. She also referred me to a neurologist. When I went to him, he discovered that the skin on the left side of my body is numb by poking me with needles. I got an EEG and an MRI. Because of those I have discovered that I don't like certain lights and sounds. My brain goes crazy. I'm seeing the Neurologist again this upcoming Tuesday.

*beep boop*

   Because of these things I decided to take a break from college while I get my shit together. Sadly I haven't been able to work and my poor husband has been picking up the slack. He trully is the best though. I am so glad I have him with me. Also since I don't have a diagnosis yet I can't get the help I need yet. It's like a weird purgatory.

 
  Things seem to be on track again for the most part and I'm planning on resuming my college-doings as soon as I can. I have also been updating my resume and found a couple jobs I might be able to do. Either way I will continue to blog and be me. Keep being you beautiful people.

Look it my brain!

Clubbing Dreams and an Important announcement!

So I'm going to start this entry with a long and involved back story about me and my life in the goth club scene. Maybe I should start even farther back... I was always a "weird" kid. I played with dead things and animals no one else wanted to touch. I used to save things I thought I could use to make my own science experiments that I'd hide. One of my parents would always find them and throw them away. Once or twice I was told on by a sibling. I once got in trouble in first grade for coloring a clown on our spelling classwork so it looked like he was holding an ax instead of balloons, and covered him in blood. It's safe to say I was (and am) a weirdo.

Years and years later, I discover goth somehow. I start to wear all or mostly black. Fishnet, long coats, dyed hair. I try smoking cloves and hanging out with kids who tattoo and pierce themselves and making weird art with my blood, CD's, whatever I could find.

Then after that one of my best friends, a guy who introduced me to my husband, takes me out clubbing. I finally find people who don't think I'm weird partly because some of them are a hell of a lot weirder. I craved the clubs. I get lost when I dance. I feel like I'm on another plane almost. Ever since I've been wanting to start my own place for the weirdos, the strange artists, the loners, the people who make me happy to be me.

In 2013, I tried. I started Infamy with the help of a friend. Our very first night we had Bella Morte perform. I was so happy and excited. Yes, I did it I made a place! But then it fell apart. I was never so stressed or depressed up to that point.

Cut to, I have another opportunity. I have been asked to run a night at The Tin Roof Tavern in Manchester, NH. I am so excited at the possibilities. Can't get too excited, though, this is still a trial run in a way. There's a chance it won't last forever, but at the very least I'm going to get some experience and show people what I can do. This time around, I have more support, people who want to help, people who want this place to exist. I have also made a lot more connections.

So here it is: I have renamed my old club page Infamy Productions. All my little creative efforts are all under that umbrella. My night, this blog, my art, comics, so on and so forth. I feel like that works for most of my, well, works.

So if you want to come here's our "first" night. My dear husband, DJbadaxe and his sib Sawtooth are of course DJing. I should mention this event falls on Badaxe's birthday. He deserves extra points and love for that!

As always if you want to see some of my adventures and random doings, here's my Instagram. Yerps.

See some of you soon. :)

New Years Sci-fi party!

Well, it's another year and I'm still alive. That's good I guess. Anyways, time to tell you all about how the sci-fi party went!

I'll start with sharing some of the Instagramming of the preparations that happened beforehand: We went to the party store for supplies, Div showed off his Emperor skills, I introduced my oldest friend to Doctor Who, Div showed off his cooking skills, Mmmm cooking skills.... Seriously people, you should hire him to cook for you. He will seriously cook at your dinner parties omfg. (Here's his facebook, tell him I sent you!).

Then Michelle got her bake on and made a C3PO cake. She event made him all yellow using food coloring!

Played some board games, watched and made fun of some movies, there were some crossovers.

And we may have gotten a bit sloppy :P 

Our chef also happened to get added to a list of best Star Wars cosplayers! Pretty cool and timely. Also don't forget you can still help Div out! The Go Fund Me page for him is here.


You should also take a look-see at this, things are afoot.

Closets.

   I'm doing it yet again. What, you may ask? Starting off a blog apologizing for something I did to myself. I thought my next post would be a summary of other things I did and about all my awesome gifts I got fir my birthday. What ended up happening was me sinking into depression, anxiety, and stress from several sources. Still not having the best time, but a lot of it was relieved by finishing the last math test I needed today.

   So now onto other things. So as I've mentioned in several places on and off the internet, I came out as Genderfluid. This means a lot of different things to different people so I'm just going to talk about my experiences.

Part of the problems with being Genderfluid is my clothing situation. Sometimes I feel "girly" and I want to wear skirts and dresses and I love my boobs and I love having cleavage. Sometimes I'm in-between and I don't mind some of my curves showing but not really, then there are days like today, where I feel "manly." I let my body hair grow, I wear a beanie and/or a hoodie, I wish my voice was deeper,  I hide my boobs and daydream about being able to just take them off and put them in storage somewhere. This has made my closet a dangerous place.

  Since coming to terms with the fact that I am Genderfluid, and that it's totally fine, I decided it would be more helpful if I clean out and rearrange my closet. This way it'll be much easier to dress how I'm feeling. Plus, I had a lot of bullshit clothes in there I don't need.

Thus, I began cleaning and organizing my closet. Documenting it here and there on various social media: https://vine.co/v/exUh53XYJev, GGPuckgram
~This is a bunch of the clothes no longer in the closet. Some of it is going to friends and getting donated, the rest is either being fixed or repurposed, hopefully with the awesome skills of some of my friends.

And over here is the current state of things in one corner. I've been working on this for months and it's not done, but progress.

Speaking of my talented friends: I'm throwing a Sci-Fi themed party with the help of an awesome friend of mine. You may have seen me furiously pinning ideas for it. We're planning on doing the nebula bottles and the Jolly Rancher shot glasses. Maybe I'll record it. Who knows. My friend Div is going to be cooking for us. Which speaking of, if you happen to have some extra cash, you should help him out.

Alright, that's it.
I might have exciting news soon, though. Fingers crossed and all that jazz.

Birthday Doings Summary and things to come.

So my birthday weekend has come and gone and as promised I have things to share! So my birthday event at Resurrection was pretty fucking sweet. Partially literally since DJ Pet made me some super tasty cupcakes. Sadly I didn't take any pictures of them. Pet made the place look great. Here's a video! Once again Sawtooth and Badaxe did a great job. They definitely knew their audience in this case.

I had a couple of artist friends come in with their stuff, feel free to check them out! Like dead stuff like I do? Go to http://www.frozenduskstudio.com/. The other artist doesn't have a page for her art right now, but feel free to oogle her model page: http://www.modelmayhem.com/DDinred.

Oh, I finally caved and got an Instagram. So follow me I suppose? https://www.instagram.com/ggpuck/

I'll post again next week!

Event post double feature! DITfest 2015 and my birthday night!

A lot of things happening in my world lately. Mostly really cool things. Last weekend I participated in my second Doin' It Together Fest. DITfest is an event where musician-type people put their name in a proverbial hat and are assigned a band. They then have one day to write, practice and then perform. My band was "The Jeff's." There was video taken that I will share when it's posted. For now check out these kickass photos! It's almost like I know what I'm doing! :P

Of course tomorrow is my birthday event! Exciting stuff! It's video themed so I decided I wanted to make an outfit inspired my favorite video game of all time, The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time. Thus, I've been jokingly calling it my "Ootfit" (I know someone out there is mentally smacking me for that pun). 

I made a vine of me putting the outfit together too: https://vine.co/v/iu7WqFWQPjE

I'll write again next week!

Birthday Doings.

Well, the first charity event of my birthday month came and went. Extra-life raised over $6-million for hospitals to help sick kids. The team I belonged had the goal of $250 and ended up raising $505! Good job team!

Not it's time for the next charity! As mentioned before I'm "taking over" Resurrection on my upcoming birthday. The event page has been officially posted, RSVP >Here<. It's video game themed so there should be sweet game music remixes and feel free to dress in your gamer best.

We're using the night to raise money for Planned Parenthood! If you can't come to the event please make an online donation or at least share this with someone who might be interested.

Apologies for the lack of pictures. I'll probably vine some of these events so follow me.

Using My Powers for Good.

First off, apologies for not posting any blogs last month. October is always super busy. Normally this would be an event post all about the concert I went to in Salem MA this past weekend: DARQ presents: God Module/Angelspit/Gothsicles/Voicecoil/Mordacious! I'd normally be showing off the outfit I wore, or talking about how it was the first time I had been to Darq. Or, I'd be posting about the outfit I plan to wear to Resurrection: The Gunpowder Treason this Thursday, but this blog entry is about other things this time. It's going to be long but bear with me.

My birthday is coming up, November 19th and I am having a HUGE celebration. I'm turning 28 years old. Now this isn't a significant number or anything, there's no thrill like when you turn 21. This birthday feels special to me though. It's a long story but basically, a lot of things happened in the past year, year and a half that impacted me and my life and I'm celebrating making it through and embracing who I am. I might get into more of that story in the future. To get more to the point, I believe in "using my powers for good." What better way than to use my social "powers" and my birthday? Basically, instead of giving me gifts, I'd like it if my friends or whoever else reads this blog to help one of the following charities:

First up is Extra-Life. This charity is dedicated to helping sick kids who are stuck in hospitals. I've been participating in this fundraiser on and off for a few years now. The idea of it is that you marathon games, whether they are video games or ones of the tabletop variety, for 24 hours, all the while getting donations from awesome people. The team I'm helping out is run by the nice people over at The Cardboard Republic.

Second up, Planned Parenthood. Sexual safety is very important to me. I think so many problems could be solved if everyone was just taught how their body works and understood how important sex is and how to be safe. Planned Parenthood has helped me so many times and helps so many other people. I think it's an invaluable resource. I have started a fundraiser page, but I am also using my party on the 19th at Ressurection to raise money. There will be raffles for fun baskets full of prizes and "Sexperts" from Planned Parenthood will be celebrating with us.

Next up, The Wayne Foundation. This was started by Jamie Walton and Kevin Smith. It's a charity specializing in helping women who are victims of the sex slave trade. A thing that still happens today believe it or not. Not going to lie, Kevin Smith is an inspiration towards my desire to "Use my powers for good." Well him and Batman, Another future blog topic meyhaps.

I emailed The Wayne Foundation because I was concerned about victims that don't identify as women and Jamie sent me a nice email telling me about their partner organization More Too Life which helps victims of sexual violence of all kinds of all gender identities. So you can donate to them too if you'd like.

So if you can't donate to any of these, please share them. If you don't want to share it, just do something nice for someone. Make someone laugh. Life is hard and shitty and upsetting. The least any of us can do is something, even something small, to help relieve someone else's pain or sadness.

And to all my friends who I like to make laugh: If you are lonely and need me to make you giggle, and I'm not around, watch some of my vines. :)

Belated Event Posts! Plague: A Mad Hatter's tea-party and Resurrection: #tbt

Last month I went to Plague up in Maine. We carpooled with Sawtooth who was DJing. It was Alice in Wonderland themed and was a locals birthday party. Definitely gave me some ideas for my birthday in a couple months. Instead of dressing in themed I just threw an outfit together and did weird shit with my make-up.

The next event was this past thursday. Rez. Sillah Made me hurt my legs. Saw a bunch of people I hadn't seen in a long time.  The theme was Throw Back Thursday meaning back in the day goth. They plaayed some classics from the 80's and such. I tried to go 80's goth style. I was going to tease the fuck out of my hair but I forgot my hairspray. Oh wells.

I made a vine of it. Look! -> https://vine.co/v/eTrVKpVWmti

Here's what I wore!

Updates updates!

A lot of things going on in my world. I had planned this big epic team post with my sister but we ended up just having sister time together. It was wonderful and I had a great time. Sadly for you guys though it meant less posting from me. Which is upsetting since I did wear me some nice outfits you all missed.

I know I keep saying this every few months, but this time around I am seriously going to make an effort to post more regularly. I'm back in school again but I think it'll be easier to post more regularly with a consistent schedule.

I don't have anything clothing related in this post but I'd like to take this opportunity to share other things I do you might not know about.

I'm a huge fan of Let's Plays and video games in general, so I've been experimenting with doing it myself. SO far I haven't done much outside of play Hearthstone but I'm trying. You can check that out here: http://plays.tv/u/Puck

I also started a Vine. I should have done this forever ago. I've been having a great time making silly little videos. I can't wait until I go to a club and can record some of the great grafitti I find or something. That is here: https://vine.co/u/1249902513080664064 (I'll eventually have a nicer url.)

I have a couple other Youtube channels. I thought about starting one for this blog where I show things like what my closet looks like, shopping vlogs etc. but I'm just going to use the one I originally did for my daydream Let's Play Channel. I can have video games and clothes on there. It's my channel. Anyway, that's here: (Forgive the emptiness, needs work) https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCEjlTUgDfYFXI1dQ8_IFOBA

+I've had a Twitter account for years but I haven't used it consistently for awhile. I recently reactivated it for the millionth time. It mostly just has Vine postings but I might start posting when I update my blog for example. Find it Here: https://twitter.com/ZA_Shojogamer

+Last two with be somewhat fashion related. I already did a blog entry about this but May as well mention it again. Pinterest! I don't think I need to explain much about that site. Here it is: https://www.pinterest.com/manbatgirl/

+Last but not least is Keep. Keep's like Pinterest except you can only "pin", to borrow pinterest's terms, items that can be actually bought. So the "pin" is connected to the store. Example: you see an awesome shirt but you don't have any money. You put it on Keep. You forget about the shirt. A few weeks go by and your bored and go on Keep. You see that shirt again and have money! You click and buy it through the site. You can also earn money through the site and discounts and things so you might get that shirt for free if you play your cards right. Oh and you can connect it to your Pinterest and get multiple things done at the same time. It is here: https://keep.com/u/alicia_puckery/

Oh and there is now a Facebook page for this blog if you prefer that. Here: https://www.facebook.com/ShoestringGoth

That's it! If I get more things I'll make an updated post. I've had some Tumblr's but I dunno if I'll revive that or not. My next post will probably be Friday.

BYYYEEEEE!

Event post: Star Wars birthday! (private event).

Going to a summer Star Wars birthday party. I own a few Star Wars shirts but I decided to go with my Bulbasaur/Boba Fett mash-up shirt. And my galaxy shorts under short shorts. Myep.

Hair!

Event Post! XMortis: the Last Event at TT's :(

Today's event is a sad one. It's the last night of a night that's been around for awhile, X-Mortis. This wasn't a night I went to often, but the few times I've gone have been memorable. The first night I went was in the summer. I remember sexy beach pirates. I tossed a beach ball around with the handful of others who had come early. I grabbed a drink walked around. Then at a certain point it was overflowing with people. It was an explosion of shades of black, arms and legs kicking, people in their own worlds. It was interesting.

Despite first making out with my husband in a club, he doesn't go to many nights. He liked that night when he went though, he has a thing for pool.

I am anticipating a crowd. I'm expecting to sweat. I will be dressed accordingly.

Event Post - Resurrection: Sci-fi Picture show

I'm going to the next Rez with a new spiffy outfit! As you may have figured out from the title, it's a Science Fiction themed event. I recently got an awesome shirt from an awesome lady featuring one of my favorite characters from one of my favorite Sci-fi shows. Since it was really big for me I "altered" it to look more like a tank dress. I am then wearing these boxers underneath that feature nebula and space stuff with some similarly styled knee-high socks. And since the fourth of July is coming up. I threw on some red white and blue.

Puck shares a thing! FB

The blog has been sparse. I have been doing the whole "real-life" thing. I have done a small thing. I have finally started a Facebook page. If you want updates for my posts feel free to give it a like!


That's all for now. I know, short posts aren't cool.

Event Post- ClusterFuck2: The Fuckening!

I can't believe it's been a whole year! It's the second time Rez is doing Clusterfuck! It's a fun event where a bunch of DJ's are picked randomly and only get 15-minute sets. They can't repeat anyone else's songs and they can't go over their allotted time. The DJ's love it. Once again, my awesome husband is participating. I'm so excited. Especially since he hasn't told me anything and has been collecting songs in secrecy.

In what is becoming a tradition, my husband is picking out the outfit I'm going to wear! Here is what he picked.

The DJ peruses the closet (ignore the wasp spray).

Checking a drawer.

He went with my favorite earrings. They were made for me by an awesome friend.

This cute beetle necklace.

And he decided to go with this simple dress.

See you guys there!