Clubbing Dreams and an Important announcement!

So I'm going to start this entry with a long and involved back story about me and my life in the goth club scene. Maybe I should start even farther back... I was always a "weird" kid. I played with dead things and animals no one else wanted to touch. I used to save things I thought I could use to make my own science experiments that I'd hide. One of my parents would always find them and throw them away. Once or twice I was told on by a sibling. I once got in trouble in first grade for coloring a clown on our spelling classwork so it looked like he was holding an ax instead of balloons, and covered him in blood. It's safe to say I was (and am) a weirdo.

Years and years later, I discover goth somehow. I start to wear all or mostly black. Fishnet, long coats, dyed hair. I try smoking cloves and hanging out with kids who tattoo and pierce themselves and making weird art with my blood, CD's, whatever I could find.

Then after that one of my best friends, a guy who introduced me to my husband, takes me out clubbing. I finally find people who don't think I'm weird partly because some of them are a hell of a lot weirder. I craved the clubs. I get lost when I dance. I feel like I'm on another plane almost. Ever since I've been wanting to start my own place for the weirdos, the strange artists, the loners, the people who make me happy to be me.

In 2013, I tried. I started Infamy with the help of a friend. Our very first night we had Bella Morte perform. I was so happy and excited. Yes, I did it I made a place! But then it fell apart. I was never so stressed or depressed up to that point.

Cut to, I have another opportunity. I have been asked to run a night at The Tin Roof Tavern in Manchester, NH. I am so excited at the possibilities. Can't get too excited, though, this is still a trial run in a way. There's a chance it won't last forever, but at the very least I'm going to get some experience and show people what I can do. This time around, I have more support, people who want to help, people who want this place to exist. I have also made a lot more connections.

So here it is: I have renamed my old club page Infamy Productions. All my little creative efforts are all under that umbrella. My night, this blog, my art, comics, so on and so forth. I feel like that works for most of my, well, works.

So if you want to come here's our "first" night. My dear husband, DJbadaxe and his sib Sawtooth are of course DJing. I should mention this event falls on Badaxe's birthday. He deserves extra points and love for that!

As always if you want to see some of my adventures and random doings, here's my Instagram. Yerps.

See some of you soon. :)

New Years Sci-fi party!

Well, it's another year and I'm still alive. That's good I guess. Anyways, time to tell you all about how the sci-fi party went!

I'll start with sharing some of the Instagramming of the preparations that happened beforehand: We went to the party store for supplies, Div showed off his Emperor skills, I introduced my oldest friend to Doctor Who, Div showed off his cooking skills, Mmmm cooking skills.... Seriously people, you should hire him to cook for you. He will seriously cook at your dinner parties omfg. (Here's his facebook, tell him I sent you!).

Then Michelle got her bake on and made a C3PO cake. She event made him all yellow using food coloring!

Played some board games, watched and made fun of some movies, there were some crossovers.

And we may have gotten a bit sloppy :P 

Our chef also happened to get added to a list of best Star Wars cosplayers! Pretty cool and timely. Also don't forget you can still help Div out! The Go Fund Me page for him is here.


You should also take a look-see at this, things are afoot.

Closets.

   I'm doing it yet again. What, you may ask? Starting off a blog apologizing for something I did to myself. I thought my next post would be a summary of other things I did and about all my awesome gifts I got fir my birthday. What ended up happening was me sinking into depression, anxiety, and stress from several sources. Still not having the best time, but a lot of it was relieved by finishing the last math test I needed today.

   So now onto other things. So as I've mentioned in several places on and off the internet, I came out as Genderfluid. This means a lot of different things to different people so I'm just going to talk about my experiences.

Part of the problems with being Genderfluid is my clothing situation. Sometimes I feel "girly" and I want to wear skirts and dresses and I love my boobs and I love having cleavage. Sometimes I'm in-between and I don't mind some of my curves showing but not really, then there are days like today, where I feel "manly." I let my body hair grow, I wear a beanie and/or a hoodie, I wish my voice was deeper,  I hide my boobs and daydream about being able to just take them off and put them in storage somewhere. This has made my closet a dangerous place.

  Since coming to terms with the fact that I am Genderfluid, and that it's totally fine, I decided it would be more helpful if I clean out and rearrange my closet. This way it'll be much easier to dress how I'm feeling. Plus, I had a lot of bullshit clothes in there I don't need.

Thus, I began cleaning and organizing my closet. Documenting it here and there on various social media: https://vine.co/v/exUh53XYJev, GGPuckgram
~This is a bunch of the clothes no longer in the closet. Some of it is going to friends and getting donated, the rest is either being fixed or repurposed, hopefully with the awesome skills of some of my friends.

And over here is the current state of things in one corner. I've been working on this for months and it's not done, but progress.

Speaking of my talented friends: I'm throwing a Sci-Fi themed party with the help of an awesome friend of mine. You may have seen me furiously pinning ideas for it. We're planning on doing the nebula bottles and the Jolly Rancher shot glasses. Maybe I'll record it. Who knows. My friend Div is going to be cooking for us. Which speaking of, if you happen to have some extra cash, you should help him out.

Alright, that's it.
I might have exciting news soon, though. Fingers crossed and all that jazz.

Birthday Doings Summary and things to come.

So my birthday weekend has come and gone and as promised I have things to share! So my birthday event at Resurrection was pretty fucking sweet. Partially literally since DJ Pet made me some super tasty cupcakes. Sadly I didn't take any pictures of them. Pet made the place look great. Here's a video! Once again Sawtooth and Badaxe did a great job. They definitely knew their audience in this case.

I had a couple of artist friends come in with their stuff, feel free to check them out! Like dead stuff like I do? Go to http://www.frozenduskstudio.com/. The other artist doesn't have a page for her art right now, but feel free to oogle her model page: http://www.modelmayhem.com/DDinred.

Oh, I finally caved and got an Instagram. So follow me I suppose? https://www.instagram.com/ggpuck/

I'll post again next week!

Event post double feature! DITfest 2015 and my birthday night!

A lot of things happening in my world lately. Mostly really cool things. Last weekend I participated in my second Doin' It Together Fest. DITfest is an event where musician-type people put their name in a proverbial hat and are assigned a band. They then have one day to write, practice and then perform. My band was "The Jeff's." There was video taken that I will share when it's posted. For now check out these kickass photos! It's almost like I know what I'm doing! :P

Of course tomorrow is my birthday event! Exciting stuff! It's video themed so I decided I wanted to make an outfit inspired my favorite video game of all time, The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time. Thus, I've been jokingly calling it my "Ootfit" (I know someone out there is mentally smacking me for that pun). 

I made a vine of me putting the outfit together too: https://vine.co/v/iu7WqFWQPjE

I'll write again next week!

Birthday Doings.

Well, the first charity event of my birthday month came and went. Extra-life raised over $6-million for hospitals to help sick kids. The team I belonged had the goal of $250 and ended up raising $505! Good job team!

Not it's time for the next charity! As mentioned before I'm "taking over" Resurrection on my upcoming birthday. The event page has been officially posted, RSVP >Here<. It's video game themed so there should be sweet game music remixes and feel free to dress in your gamer best.

We're using the night to raise money for Planned Parenthood! If you can't come to the event please make an online donation or at least share this with someone who might be interested.

Apologies for the lack of pictures. I'll probably vine some of these events so follow me.

Using My Powers for Good.

First off, apologies for not posting any blogs last month. October is always super busy. Normally this would be an event post all about the concert I went to in Salem MA this past weekend: DARQ presents: God Module/Angelspit/Gothsicles/Voicecoil/Mordacious! I'd normally be showing off the outfit I wore, or talking about how it was the first time I had been to Darq. Or, I'd be posting about the outfit I plan to wear to Resurrection: The Gunpowder Treason this Thursday, but this blog entry is about other things this time. It's going to be long but bear with me.

My birthday is coming up, November 19th and I am having a HUGE celebration. I'm turning 28 years old. Now this isn't a significant number or anything, there's no thrill like when you turn 21. This birthday feels special to me though. It's a long story but basically, a lot of things happened in the past year, year and a half that impacted me and my life and I'm celebrating making it through and embracing who I am. I might get into more of that story in the future. To get more to the point, I believe in "using my powers for good." What better way than to use my social "powers" and my birthday? Basically, instead of giving me gifts, I'd like it if my friends or whoever else reads this blog to help one of the following charities:

First up is Extra-Life. This charity is dedicated to helping sick kids who are stuck in hospitals. I've been participating in this fundraiser on and off for a few years now. The idea of it is that you marathon games, whether they are video games or ones of the tabletop variety, for 24 hours, all the while getting donations from awesome people. The team I'm helping out is run by the nice people over at The Cardboard Republic.

Second up, Planned Parenthood. Sexual safety is very important to me. I think so many problems could be solved if everyone was just taught how their body works and understood how important sex is and how to be safe. Planned Parenthood has helped me so many times and helps so many other people. I think it's an invaluable resource. I have started a fundraiser page, but I am also using my party on the 19th at Ressurection to raise money. There will be raffles for fun baskets full of prizes and "Sexperts" from Planned Parenthood will be celebrating with us.

Next up, The Wayne Foundation. This was started by Jamie Walton and Kevin Smith. It's a charity specializing in helping women who are victims of the sex slave trade. A thing that still happens today believe it or not. Not going to lie, Kevin Smith is an inspiration towards my desire to "Use my powers for good." Well him and Batman, Another future blog topic meyhaps.

I emailed The Wayne Foundation because I was concerned about victims that don't identify as women and Jamie sent me a nice email telling me about their partner organization More Too Life which helps victims of sexual violence of all kinds of all gender identities. So you can donate to them too if you'd like.

So if you can't donate to any of these, please share them. If you don't want to share it, just do something nice for someone. Make someone laugh. Life is hard and shitty and upsetting. The least any of us can do is something, even something small, to help relieve someone else's pain or sadness.

And to all my friends who I like to make laugh: If you are lonely and need me to make you giggle, and I'm not around, watch some of my vines. :)