Tuesday, December 22, 2015

Closets.

   I'm doing it yet again. What, you may ask? Starting off a blog apologizing for something I did to myself. I thought my next post would be a summary of other things I did and about all my awesome gifts I got fir my birthday. What ended up happening was me sinking into depression, anxiety, and stress from several sources. Still not having the best time, but a lot of it was relieved by finishing the last math test I needed today.

   So now onto other things. So as I've mentioned in several places on and off the internet, I came out as Genderfluid. This means a lot of different things to different people so I'm just going to talk about my experiences.

Part of the problems with being Genderfluid is my clothing situation. Sometimes I feel "girly" and I want to wear skirts and dresses and I love my boobs and I love having cleavage. Sometimes I'm in-between and I don't mind some of my curves showing but not really, then there are days like today, where I feel "manly." I let my body hair grow, I wear a beanie and/or a hoodie, I wish my voice was deeper,  I hide my boobs and daydream about being able to just take them off and put them in storage somewhere. This has made my closet a dangerous place.

  Since coming to terms with the fact that I am Genderfluid, and that it's totally fine, I decided it would be more helpful if I clean out and rearrange my closet. This way it'll be much easier to dress how I'm feeling. Plus, I had a lot of bullshit clothes in there I don't need.

Thus, I began cleaning and organizing my closet. Documenting it here and there on various social media: https://vine.co/v/exUh53XYJevGGPuckgram
~This is a bunch of the clothes no longer in the closet. Some of it is going to friends and getting donated, the rest is either being fixed or repurposed, hopefully with the awesome skills of some of my friends.




And over here is the current state of things in one corner. I've been working on this for months and it's not done, but progress.

Speaking of my talented friends: I'm throwing a Sci-Fi themed party with the help of an awesome friend of mine. You may have seen me furiously pinning ideas for it. We're planning on doing the nebula bottles and the Jolly Rancher shot glasses. Maybe I'll record it. Who knows. My friend Div is going to be cooking for us. Which speaking of, if you happen to have some extra cash, you should help him out.

Alright, that's it.
I might have exciting news soon, though. Fingers crossed and all that jazz.