June so soon?

June is going by pretty quickly it seems. It took longer than I meant it to but here's an update on how the event went we threw to raise money for my friend Joshua's Japan travels. We made $362 in roughly four hours. I call it a success. If you couldn't make it to the event but want to help out, there is plenty of time. Click on his name up above and throw some money at him.

Infamy productions is still up and running. We will be running a vending table at the Steampunk festival up in Nashua August 20th. I've been working on some accessories. I'll document my progress over on my Instagram, so check it out if you get curious.

We'll definitely be running more events. I'm even interested in being a part of some wedding planning, officiating if any of you are looking for some help. I think it'd be extra fun if it's a super "weird" wedding or something.

Oh, my husband and I have been working on a video series. We don't have a Youtube channel or anything yet, but I did finally figure out my Twitch channel if that interests you. I've been playing mostly Hearthstone and Overwatch for now. I mostly stream in the morning, or in the evening when I have other friends.

Don't forget to like my page for this blog and my twitter.

I hope I get to show you some amazing Steampunk clothes and accessories next time around!

Event Post: Ressurection Under Da Covers

So I took a bit of a break from the clubbing scene. Life happened and shit got stressful for a minute plus my lovery medical maladies being a literal pain. I will spare those details for now, though.

I have been making more art lately so I started a new Deviantart. If we used to be friends there, add me! Also, add me if you weren't I suppose.

This Thursday I will be at Ressurection: Under Da Covers helping my pal Josh sling some anime wares. I haven't yet decided what PJ's I'm wearing. Probably my default Batman onesie with Batman shirt and such underneath and my stuffed animal, Robin, the Bear-Wonder.

Normally I would post pictures of these things but I think I'm going to try something different today. I'm going to post pictures relating to this post on my Instagram. I will Hashtag it something like; #gothonashoestring #eventpost #Rez that seems maybe good.

Speaking of my Dear sir Josh, Don't forget to come hang out with us the last Sunday of this month.

See you elsewhere on the internet.

Use your powers for good.

So it turns out I have some updates this time! First of all, I will be at Pax East this weekend on Saturday April 22nd. I will be there assisting my cosplaying friend, (and once upon a time room-mate), Kamikaze Miko. I will also be temporarily "taking over" the Instagram account of Kosplay Underground, taking pictures, videos, so maybe I'll see some of you there!

I've somewhat rekindled my love of anime lately. Adult things got in the way of some things and I was starting to get a little too stressed so I began to check back in on some of my "old" loves. Next thing you know I'm doing things at Pax for people haha. It's kind of awesome to be honest. I know I will be stressed at tired by the end. Worth it.

I have also been working on another charity event. It's still somewhat in the early workings, but keep your calendar open for the the end of May if you are super into basically anything Japanese, especially cosplay and dancing. In the meantime, pleas check this page out for me: https://www.gofundme.com/tqckr7hg

See you later people.
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Life updates, medical doings, and what else?

          So this post is long, involved, and is about issues in my life I am almost cerain some of you don't give two shits about. It's not about fashion, or goth things, but as I've said before, it's my blog so fuck it.

           The last year or so has been rough. Deaths, divorces, the loss of family, fights, stress, pain. It was like bing in a dark tunnel with a light at the end, but the light keeps moving farther away. During this time, my body began to feel "weird." I got clumsier, my hands weren't co-operating, my neck, back, and shoulders were always still. I started forgetting things more. Words would just disapear from my head. Weird muscle spasms, temperature changes, sweating. As I write this my hand feels like it's burning. Don't even get me stared on the random pains and joints popping. I'm 28 years old and I feel like I'm in the body of a 70 year old.
           I though I had done it to myself somehow. I started experimenting on myselg. I changed my diet. I stopped smoking weed to see if that had anythign to do with it, the only thing that did was made me realize how bad my pain is. I stopped drinking booze for a while and to this day I don't drink nearly as much as I used to. I ragged and flipped out on friends and loved ones almost against my will. I felt like I was possessed. I thought it was just a lot of stress. I felt like I was losing my mind.
            I went to my doctor. She said we should rule out arthritis before moving onto things like MS or Lupus. She also referred me to a neurologist. When I went to him, he discovered that the skin on the left side of my body is numb by poking me with needles. I got an EEG and an MRI. Because of those I have discovered that I don't like certain lights and sounds. My brain goes crazy. I'm seeing the Neurologist again this upcoming Tuesday.

*beep boop*

   Because of these things I decided to take a break from college while I get my shit together. Sadly I haven't been able to work and my poor husband has been picking up the slack. He trully is the best though. I am so glad I have him with me. Also since I don't have a diagnosis yet I can't get the help I need yet. It's like a weird purgatory.

 
  Things seem to be on track again for the most part and I'm planning on resuming my college-doings as soon as I can. I have also been updating my resume and found a couple jobs I might be able to do. Either way I will continue to blog and be me. Keep being you beautiful people.

Look it my brain!

Clubbing Dreams and an Important announcement!

So I'm going to start this entry with a long and involved back story about me and my life in the goth club scene. Maybe I should start even farther back... I was always a "weird" kid. I played with dead things and animals no one else wanted to touch. I used to save things I thought I could use to make my own science experiments that I'd hide. One of my parents would always find them and throw them away. Once or twice I was told on by a sibling. I once got in trouble in first grade for coloring a clown on our spelling classwork so it looked like he was holding an ax instead of balloons, and covered him in blood. It's safe to say I was (and am) a weirdo.

Years and years later, I discover goth somehow. I start to wear all or mostly black. Fishnet, long coats, dyed hair. I try smoking cloves and hanging out with kids who tattoo and pierce themselves and making weird art with my blood, CD's, whatever I could find.

Then after that one of my best friends, a guy who introduced me to my husband, takes me out clubbing. I finally find people who don't think I'm weird partly because some of them are a hell of a lot weirder. I craved the clubs. I get lost when I dance. I feel like I'm on another plane almost. Ever since I've been wanting to start my own place for the weirdos, the strange artists, the loners, the people who make me happy to be me.

In 2013, I tried. I started Infamy with the help of a friend. Our very first night we had Bella Morte perform. I was so happy and excited. Yes, I did it I made a place! But then it fell apart. I was never so stressed or depressed up to that point.

Cut to, I have another opportunity. I have been asked to run a night at The Tin Roof Tavern in Manchester, NH. I am so excited at the possibilities. Can't get too excited, though, this is still a trial run in a way. There's a chance it won't last forever, but at the very least I'm going to get some experience and show people what I can do. This time around, I have more support, people who want to help, people who want this place to exist. I have also made a lot more connections.

So here it is: I have renamed my old club page Infamy Productions. All my little creative efforts are all under that umbrella. My night, this blog, my art, comics, so on and so forth. I feel like that works for most of my, well, works.

So if you want to come here's our "first" night. My dear husband, DJbadaxe and his sib Sawtooth are of course DJing. I should mention this event falls on Badaxe's birthday. He deserves extra points and love for that!

As always if you want to see some of my adventures and random doings, here's my Instagram. Yerps.

See some of you soon. :)

New Years Sci-fi party!

Well, it's another year and I'm still alive. That's good I guess. Anyways, time to tell you all about how the sci-fi party went!

I'll start with sharing some of the Instagramming of the preparations that happened beforehand: We went to the party store for supplies, Div showed off his Emperor skills, I introduced my oldest friend to Doctor Who, Div showed off his cooking skills, Mmmm cooking skills.... Seriously people, you should hire him to cook for you. He will seriously cook at your dinner parties omfg. (Here's his facebook, tell him I sent you!).

Then Michelle got her bake on and made a C3PO cake. She event made him all yellow using food coloring!

Played some board games, watched and made fun of some movies, there were some crossovers.

And we may have gotten a bit sloppy :P 

Our chef also happened to get added to a list of best Star Wars cosplayers! Pretty cool and timely. Also don't forget you can still help Div out! The Go Fund Me page for him is here.


You should also take a look-see at this, things are afoot.

Closets.

   I'm doing it yet again. What, you may ask? Starting off a blog apologizing for something I did to myself. I thought my next post would be a summary of other things I did and about all my awesome gifts I got fir my birthday. What ended up happening was me sinking into depression, anxiety, and stress from several sources. Still not having the best time, but a lot of it was relieved by finishing the last math test I needed today.

   So now onto other things. So as I've mentioned in several places on and off the internet, I came out as Genderfluid. This means a lot of different things to different people so I'm just going to talk about my experiences.

Part of the problems with being Genderfluid is my clothing situation. Sometimes I feel "girly" and I want to wear skirts and dresses and I love my boobs and I love having cleavage. Sometimes I'm in-between and I don't mind some of my curves showing but not really, then there are days like today, where I feel "manly." I let my body hair grow, I wear a beanie and/or a hoodie, I wish my voice was deeper,  I hide my boobs and daydream about being able to just take them off and put them in storage somewhere. This has made my closet a dangerous place.

  Since coming to terms with the fact that I am Genderfluid, and that it's totally fine, I decided it would be more helpful if I clean out and rearrange my closet. This way it'll be much easier to dress how I'm feeling. Plus, I had a lot of bullshit clothes in there I don't need.

Thus, I began cleaning and organizing my closet. Documenting it here and there on various social media: https://vine.co/v/exUh53XYJev, GGPuckgram
~This is a bunch of the clothes no longer in the closet. Some of it is going to friends and getting donated, the rest is either being fixed or repurposed, hopefully with the awesome skills of some of my friends.

And over here is the current state of things in one corner. I've been working on this for months and it's not done, but progress.

Speaking of my talented friends: I'm throwing a Sci-Fi themed party with the help of an awesome friend of mine. You may have seen me furiously pinning ideas for it. We're planning on doing the nebula bottles and the Jolly Rancher shot glasses. Maybe I'll record it. Who knows. My friend Div is going to be cooking for us. Which speaking of, if you happen to have some extra cash, you should help him out.

Alright, that's it.
I might have exciting news soon, though. Fingers crossed and all that jazz.